oh boy

It has been a very, very long time since I have typed anything in this blog. That is probably a good thing because whenever I turn to this blog it is usually because I'm feeling too much emotion and have no one close enough to me that cares to hear it. Today I'm updating only positive information. The last time I blogged was about a year ago. This year has been great. I moved in with my dad, step mom, step brother and the two most beautiful labs you will ever meet. I learned more about myself this year than I ever have before. I don't need to go into detail though because I know the transformation I've taken. Basically I revealed the truths to myself... It has been a beautiful year. That's all I will say about that because I can't tell you how to do that transformation yourself. I guess my only advice on that subject is to question everything and research the questions you have and they will be revealed to you. My main reason for updating this weird old blog of feelings is because I met a girl... and I like her more than I should at this moment in time. And that scares me. I have waited so long to meet a girl that I really... really... like and now that time is here. I get that feeling in my chest when I think about her. I sure hope things work out. As of right now I'm very excited about the situation I'm in but I'm also aware that this situation can turn negative very fast because it has before. We will see. I like her though and I get the feeling she feels that same about me. We went dancing last night and everything was so natural. We held hands, got close dancing, and even kissed. But the weird thing about that is I never made any moves... neither did she. It was just like a mutual connection. I didn't have to think about kissing her, it just happened. And it was cute :) I like her a lot. Let's hope my next update is positive rather than negative. Either way... I'm prepared for the worst expecting the best. It's hard to get me down when I'm in this mind set :) Much love to you Danny D and whatever happens these next few months. I'm not talking about this girl anymore. COMET ISON. She will be a beauty. The world is about to go through a MAJOR transformation and I CANNOT WAIT!

OY! It's New Years.

Resolutions:

[  ] Play basketball (be able to dunk?)
[  ] Get a girlfriend or at least one step closer
[  ] Work harder on my music than I ever have
[  ] Release album with band and by myself
[  ] Go on a vacation

I'll be back next year to check that ish off!

oh and...

 I finally sold that piece of shet passat.

AYO!

So I was just reading all the posts that I've done for this blog and I found it pretty interesting. This time last year I was very optimistic about my life and the direction it was heading. I had a lot of big expectations and high hopes for 2011. Just a few weeks into the year 2011 things started falling a part. I'm not even really sure why. Things continually got worse and all my high expectations for life had gone out the window. I started worrying about this depression I was falling in to and that made things even worse. I just kept replaying instances in my head and questioning them over and over again. Someone who has experience anxiety or depression knows this is one of the worst things you can do. Well, long story short, things didn't start getting better until I moved back to college and started hanging around a lot of people again. I became too busy to worry about the things in my head and eventually my sad thoughts/feelings left me. I have been pretty happy for a couple months now and I don't see that changing anytime soon. I now also have very high expectations for 2012. I am putting music as my first priority. That is what I want out of life and I realized the people who are successful in music are the ones who work the hardest. We'll see what happens. I imagine I won't update this a lot because I never do but I'll try to remember when something big or significant happens. Keep on truckin Danny D.

YO IT IS MEH BETCH

Probably a good idea for me to do one of my random updates. I moved back to college a couple weeks ago and things are going good. I have made some good friends that I'm excited to get to know even better throughout the school year. I love my classes. I love my job. For the most part I'm just loving my life. There isn't any major highs going on but no major lows either which is one really GOOOOD sign. This last spring and summer were absolute hell. Never again do I want to enter that dark place where I was. I don't even like to think about it. Life has gotten normal again and I'm so thankful for that. Being back in school and around people all the time has been so healthy for me. I wonder where this year will take me............

P.S. I GOT A NEW MUSIC PROGRAM AND ITS DANKY DANKETY

Summers Close

So I'm sitting here at my dads house, watching tv and thinking about how odd this summer was. When I was here back in May my life started to fall apart. I felt like my life had no purpose or meaning. I started having extreme anxiety and depression that was almost too much to handle. I still have no idea what caused me to experience this negative downfall but I just figured everybody has to experience it sometime during their life. Not only was I experiencing negative emotions I was also having a lot of physical problems. I was sick for two months with a sinus infection, then I had a bloody nose of a lifetime that had to be plugged with an inflatable tampon. This stuff just added towards my anger at life. No matter what I did nothing seemed to help. I just sat on my computer and playstation trying to make the days pass. Things just kept getting worse and my emotional breakdowns were becoming more frequent. Things finally started getting better about a month ago. I bought a book about dealing with depression and it gave me some good advice about how to deal with my feelings. During the summer I was also recording a lot of music. I decided before summer even started that I was going to record a whole album and release it. That's exactly what I did. No one will ever know how much that album means to me. The night I finished it, I went for a drive in my car and listened to it. I had chills the entire time. Every song that I listened to brought back the feelings I had when I was recording it. It was almost like me releasing that album was me defeating all that negativity that I had built up inside me. I have been so much more happy and stable ever since I made that album. It has been a long and lonely summer though and I'm so anxious to get back to being busy and being around humans again. lol. If life decides to take a negative drop again I know that I can handle it and it will pass. Always does.

YEyuh

Things are getting better. Not much to say other than that.

PEACE!

Daniel